Sunday, August 19, 2012

The Girls Are Three

I can't believe the girls are three already. Where has the time gone! I debated on writing about Sofia's sleep apnea this week but couldn't fight back the tears. I guess I'm not ready. The girls have started sneaking down the steps in the middle of the night and sneaking into bed. They are so funny. They try to stay awake on the balcony until we fall asleep and often fall asleep up there. I'm going to miss this time. They are so cute at this age and a huge hand full. I am so proud of their strong personalities.

Saturday, August 4, 2012

The Girls are Turning Three

My daughters will be turning three in a few days. I once again find myself overwhelmed with emotion. I can't help but think about my babies in the hospital and everything we went through. Those times were so hard. I feel terrible that I am not more excited and just HAPPY!! I should be jumping up and down with joy because I have two healthy, happy toddlers. I'm not sure what is wrong with me. How long is it going to take me to get over these feelings. It just doesn't make any sense.

This sadness is exhausting. I am barely able to function. The husband came home to a dirty house the other day. I waited for him to say something about it so I could pounce on him but instead he cleaned up the house and asked to take us for a drive. The fresh air was so refreshing. I'm doing my best not to think of the "What Ifs" I know thousands of babies are born premature, many of them suffer complications and worse yet! never come home.

I am so truly blessed that our daughters are thriving.