The Girls Are Three

I can't believe the girls are three already. Where has the time gone! I debated on writing about Sofia's sleep apnea this week but couldn't fight back the tears. I guess I'm not ready. The girls have started sneaking down the steps in the middle of the night and sneaking into bed. They are so funny. They try to stay awake on the balcony until we fall asleep and often fall asleep up there. I'm going to miss this time. They are so cute at this age and a huge hand full. I am so proud of their strong personalities.

The Girls are Turning Three

My daughters will be turning three in a few days. I once again find myself overwhelmed with emotion. I can't help but think about my babies in the hospital and everything we went through. Those times were so hard. I feel terrible that I am not more excited and just HAPPY!! I should be jumping up and down with joy because I have two healthy, happy toddlers. I'm not sure what is wrong with me. How long is it going to take me to get over these feelings. It just doesn't make any sense.

This sadness is exhausting. I am barely able to function. The husband came home to a dirty house the other day. I waited for him to say something about it so I could pounce on him but instead he cleaned up the house and asked to take us for a drive. The fresh air was so refreshing. I'm doing my best not to think of the "What Ifs" I know thousands of babies are born premature, many of them suffer complications and worse yet! never come home.

I am so truly blessed that our daughters are thriving.

What To Expect At The Bataan Memorial Death March

I am working on a new article today about the Bataan Death March. I hope this one does as well as my first one. I am really putting my heart into it. I can not wait to participate in this amazing event again. It should be interesting with three small children.

My mom is a little nervous about doing the march but I know she can do it. We just need to train really hard starting in October. It is a little difficult to train right now because I am still nursing the baby. He eats every two hours but I do what I can.

The Good Life

My article about the Bataan Death March is article of the day today on Squidoo! I am so excited! I can not believe I have earned two purple stars this month. I really want to work on my articles about my children. I am a little disappointed that I have not been able to write as passionately about them as I have my military career. I know in my  heart that it is because I still have my guard up. My heart hasn't completely healed from Sofia being in the hospital. My son has be such a huge blessing.
In a way I almost feel like I am waiting for the other shoe to drop. Our lives have never been so good.

Here It Is My Old Bio

I am currently a 30 year old stay at home mom. I have two beautiful 11 month old daughters. I am preparing to return to work as a Department of Defense firefighter instructor and I'm dreading every minute that brings me closer to going back to work. I served in the Army for nearly 11 years then got out and settled down in West Texas. It still doesn't quite feel like home here. I am originally from Grand Island, NE. I have always enjoyed the simple things in life a good sunset, a good meal, a lazy day on the couch but I have been blessed to see and do amazing things, go into a burning building, dangle from a helicopter and of course now raising twins. I think 30 is a milestone in my life but a very small one. I look forward to what the next 30 has to offer

I'm Back

I can not believe it has been so long since  I blogged. I just read my blogs and WOW! my life has changed so much. I will probably start off my adding my bio as a blog than create a new one. It is definitely not who I am anymore. I am a new writer on Squidoo so check it out!

Trip

We are preparing to take our daughters to visit family 3 hours away. My cousin is dedicating his baby and we haven't seen the family since my grandmother died a year ago. It will be interesting to see how the girls do in the car and around so many people. Right now the plan is to leave at nap time so hopefully they will sleep the whole way. God help us if they don't take a nap!